in the middle of nowhere

 hello blogger,

 its been long long time adi, where im not updating  this blogger.

Now we on middle of  year 2013, there is so much thing happen up side down in  life. when, i open my blogger i read it back my old blog  and release how  unmatured  i am. feel  dumb and also lame.

The wonderful shoes to wonderful women

The shoes  i want damn much....

there are several shoes i like very much but i dun have enough money to buy it all .. but i will buy  one by one........if i born in rich girls i will buy all. never think back.. and consider with other thing,,,, i just like it  there very much..... 

MerDeka RaYa 2012

Raya???

MeRdeKa???

both are important to me...

Once again, in this year we celebrated raya together with merdeka .. 

My famliy theme for this year are red yellow..  same like years after years  all my famliy here together and celebrating MeRdeKa RaYa with my mum and dad...we are happy and few of us sad because our great-grandmother are passaway in 2 day before raya but it's didn't make our raya cannot be celebrate. When we do open house...  all relative come to my house with wearing a beautiful raya clothers  pink , yellow, blue sea and many more... it is beautiful rigth..

 i love raya so much ... it is because we celebrate raya once for a years we need to celebrate like the elder do...

same with Merdeka.. it because for few day ago.. there  was hot topic where people around the world are talking about why we need to celebrate merdeka in 31 august?????.

 its only merdeka for malay not malaysia are being formation on 16 september 1963...

yeah it is right, when you go back to the history about the national day or independence day.  formation of malaysia from the beginning want to be declare on 31 august 1963 but being postponed  on 16 september 1963.

if you think back or re-think  on 31 august 1957 is a beginning for us free for any intervention form British or Belanda or communist. of cause we need to celebrated the national day,,,, people we need to understand our history properly dun just split out opinion without think any of cause from ours opinion and idea. if we confius please read the history of malaysia

cannot understand boy properly

 why?? 

 what actually they want?

 dear blogger, 

 i cannot understand boy n guys...they make me confius and high blod... becoz i dunno wat to do when they show face and minta puji... 

 they always say women more difficult to understand but  they the one is complicated. we dont knw what actually they think and they can hiden they feel and even they have a gf they still find other girls kunuk what to find the best....

 sometimes. i cannot trust them....

guys plz dun make me headache..... im tired  with all of this,, then u blame my kunuk this all my  fault

 this is not fair.....   

  

Before Go back Tawau

dear blogger, 

 before im going back home....as usual, i must clean it my stuff 
and packing all it. 5 year at UITM am become bored with staying at hostel.. 

next semester i wanna stay out.
paduli la ap maw jadi 

                          

 any way.... 
before my fren and me going back to tawau........ 
kami sempat jgk mengambil gambr uitm buat kali terakhir kmi menginap d hostel

sabah port view at 6.00pm

 i will miss this moment so much memori in this sem im happy with my fren with my life,,,,

 but not happy with my bf wat the year.....

to be honest i dun like the way my bf treat me... 

sesuka ati ny jak ba budu kn....

 but still  love him no matter wat happen....

even do  he treat me like baby doll...

my new bedroom

dear blogger,

 this  my new bedroom im happy my mum make it beautiful with my room... nice to come back home... 

 now it more privasi to me because i have a new bedroom and can chatting 24 hour with any interrupt for anyone hehehhee 

Happy like haven ^_~

 dear blogger,

    after  waiting him to text me. finally, i get a massage for him... i feel so happy like crazy person...

 ooo... god,

if he knew how happy i am when he send a massage... my world like a blink-blink in the sky. i jumping, i  screaming..... because I'm being with 2 day  from him sending a massage to me....

form the moment I'm release that it just only 2 day he didn't text with me... i  miss him already.. Wat happen when  if he didn't massage me 6 week and i didn't see again next sem.... i think I'm be crazy person because loving someone and missing him damn much....

 i never feel like this before... always think about someone 24 hour, make me smile  when i think about how funny when we 2 together... 

i happy like im in  haven when i receive his massage....

 if he know i missing him..... did he happy n missing me too????

all about loving someone^_^

dear blogger, 

 Today second day im being waiting him to send a  massage... but i never receive even one text massage form him.... i wondering wat he being doing there... and i cannot stop to thinking about him.....  i really wat to know      how he feel about me? or im just a dreaming in sun... 

 im really in love wit him but im must to pretend not too because  i dun wat he think about me.
 my friend already told me  love is suck n complicated.... why this happen to me arrr???? i do  know what he feel about me n i dunno like this feeling because me feel so suck and not good.

 i dunno how same people can handle it  about love problem...  it hard to say, it hard to explain  when we talk about feeling,love sameone, care sameone  and  the most,,,, most harder is when you falling in love but u did know how to express  o deliver your feeling to him.... damn it... damn...
    my situation like a Avril  Lavigne song...

i wish you here.... damn it... how come im being carzyness about you,,,,, oh  god please help me about this situation please make me forget about wat happen in this sem,,,,,
 this year so suck about im being loving sameone.....

 friend why you to sweet in my eye... palui... 

EDIT Blog

 hello hello....hello... ^_^

do u guy miss me????? hehehehehe..... 

 suda sekian lama ny ak x menulis d blog ni... terasa rindu ni maw tulis2 d sini.... mcm cukup terbiar ba blog ak ni semua ny out to date ni ba..... 

 everything was lost n bertambur everywhere ni.......

ap2 pun sian ba blog ak lama ny ndk d buka ni..... ndk terurus suda ni.... byk suda yg expire ni ba,,,

ak kasi cantik2 la... memandangan kan cuti ak panjg...jadi kena berusaha gigih kunuk mencantik kn blog ak ni...
 lagu pun yg expire ni ba ndk dapat men ni time buka ...hahahahaha budu...

keja ketika mengangtuk...

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